So it’s officially one week, T – 7 days and 19837 mins before we leave for our RTW trip. This still feels unreal. We’ve checked all the boxes on our RTW Trip detailed checklist; packed up and moved out of our condo so we’re now living in my parents basement #funtimes! We’ve handed in our notice and today was our last day of work. We’ve purchased everything we need, packed our backpacks (it all fits!yaaas!) but for some reason I still can’t process that we’re actually leaving. No matter how many times someone asks, “ Where are you going? You just quit your job? Why? Why australia? Blah blah blah.” I’ve pretty much got my response memorized at this point.
But then there’s the random bursts of emotions/anxiety when I realize that this isn’t a dream and it’s actually happening. The emo bursts happen at the most random times, right before bed, at work, while walking to the subway. I start thinking about the fact that we’re going on a long term backpacking adventure and we’ll be away from everyone in Toronto for over a year. This is something that I dreamed about doing but never thought that it would actually happen. And now, in one week, it’s happening. Ahhhhh!
One positive thing I can say about this situation is that everyone has a better sense of urgency and makes more of an effort to spend time together before we leave. We’ve been spending so much time with our friends and family these last few weeks and it’s been amazing. It’s been so fun and the memories we’ve created will last forever.
I feel physically prepared but not sure how emotionally prepared I am. I’m sad to leave my family, to leave our home, to leave my sister and best friend. And while this makes me sad, I’m super excited for the new adventures, I’m excited that Andrew and I will be experiencing this new chapter together and I’m excited for the personal growth that I know comes after every trip.
I sent my goodbye text to my team at work today and I reminded them to never get too comfortable and always push themselves because growth is right outside of their comfort zone. Although I feel scared and uncomfortable right now, I know that it’ll be worth it in the end. It always is. Fear is natural. It’s how you react to that fear that determines who you are and who you’re going to be. So I’m going to use that fear to propel myself into the next level of my life. That’s what I keep reminding myself whenever I get doubts about doing this. I’m lucky to have Andrew by my side.
A few things that I’m scared of:
- Feeling overwhelmed and lost in this new environment and not knowing what to do
- Losing touch/missing out on big moments in my close friends/families lives
- Possibly not liking it in Australia or not finding a good job
- Being away from home for so long and having to create a new home across the globe
- Not being able to accomplish the personal goals I set before going on this trip aka failure
These are some of the things I’m scared of but I know it’s just because I’m not out there yet. It’ll all work out in the end and if it doesn’t at least I’ll have a good story to tell 🙂
Have any of you done something like this before? How did you cope with the fear/sadness of leaving everything behind and venturing into the unknown? Let me know in the comments below I would love to hear from you!